Monday, December 27, 2010
I almost couldnt log into my blog today. I would have killed myself..for today, there's really something that i wanted to write here.
The person i loved is now attached.
I Swear to whoever is up there, nobody knew anything. It is SUDDEN, i stress the word SUDDEN. She was single. She is attached. It happened within a full stop, a space, and two words.
And so..she told me that over dinner. And of course my heart broke. So, i put on my mask and told myself "No way i'm breaking down." After some time i even managed to convince my heart for the outing was as normal and i didnt felt anything.
Then when i was on my way home..alone..i was like "Dude, why aren't you sad?" I know something is going on, cus my heart isnt beating normal. But its not sadness. It isnt painful. W.T.F
I THINK..i am feeling anguished. Just that i steeled myself (or you can say turn my heart into stone) so fast that..this happened..
It isnt painful.
It isnt jealous.
I'm getting a headache instead of a heartache.
I dont know what's wrong with me. Help ?
