sun set at 11:34 PM

I almost couldnt log into my blog today. I would have killed myself..for today, there's really something that i wanted to write here.

The person i loved is now attached.
I Swear to whoever is up there, nobody knew anything. It is SUDDEN, i stress the word SUDDEN. She was single. She is attached. It happened within a full stop, a space, and two words.

And so..she told me that over dinner. And of course my heart broke. So, i put on my mask and told myself "No way i'm breaking down." After some time i even managed to convince my heart for the outing was as normal and i didnt felt anything.

Then when i was on my way home..alone..i was like "Dude, why aren't you sad?" I know something is going on, cus my heart isnt beating normal. But its not sadness. It isnt painful. W.T.F

I THINK..i am feeling anguished. Just that i steeled myself (or you can say turn my heart into stone) so fast that..this happened..

It isnt painful.
It isnt jealous.
I'm getting a headache instead of a heartache.

I dont know what's wrong with me. Help ?

sun set at 10:27 PM

I hate being so reliable.
I hate people being so unreliable.
Assholes.

sun set at 11:43 PM

pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick pls dont fall sick

sun set at 8:16 PM

Damn damn afraid of being alone

sun set at 9:56 PM

Went to watch a Disney film today..fairy tales..yay! LoL. Went even though exam was nearing. Even though the fear of failing again was in my heart. Yet..i still wanna go..LoL. The film is nice. Better than Megamind.
Everything is like a fairy tale should be. First a peaceful life. Then comes an adventure which brings your life up-side down, and through it you've learn so much more about life. Yours and others. Next comes the major crisis. But you managed to face it down with your friends by your side. Lastly :

And they lived happily ever after.

=] How could anyone not LOVE fairy tales. They are everything that things should be. Its the perfect life. And even though i'm 21, I still believe in it. You need to step out of your comfort zone, take on an adventure to learn new things. You will face crisis, but you never have to face it alone. All of us will have an ending, no matter what, i want it to be happy.

There was a part in the movie, where our heroine Rapunzel went into a bar full of crooks. Yet she didnt stereotype them, and found out that all of them have dreams. Something that they wanna do in life, but along the way have wandered off from the path. I think its becoming very easy to wander off with what we really wanna do. Nowadays, its all academics, money, fame. But dont you have something that you really wanna do? What do i really wanna do? =( i dont know. hais..i really dont..

What is my dream? i like to talk to you cause you listen