Friday, September 18, 2009
i love to read fictional books.
for it teaches me to stay true to my heart. that evil will never triumph. that love will always prevail. that heroes will never give up. that friends will always stand by you no matter how dire the situation is.
its about the hero and his group misfits who stand up to evil with the Power of Love and Friendship, pushing back the darkness so the light of hope and peace can shine upon the world once more.
its about finding a fairytale in reality. a happy ending in a harsh world.
And they live happily ever after.
i will not explain to people who will never understand even if they try. i will not explain to people who dont want to listen.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
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i was thinking very hard wat to post today (tt's when i came up with the stupid idea to do something that didnt appeared very nice when i post in on my blog, this is the edited versions)...well..all i can say is tt i did daily ordinary things in an extraordinary day..hahas..i'm happy..tt's all that matters...time to think of my birthday wish before 0000hrs..hmmmm
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
when i was 15 and tried to picture myself at 20 yrs old..I only need 1 word to describe what i pictured..MATURE..LoL..what i meant was : not making silly mistakes. wont be so emotional. in control. not watching cartoons anymore. bascially..know what's right and what's wrong.
Sadly, i didnt manage to be what i imagined myself to be...I still throw tantrums, still watch cartoon and still a little angsty..LoL..hardly know whether i should lend $10 to this guy..hardly could contain my anger when talking to my dumb superior..hardly could stop myself from playing psp when i'm on the train..maybe this only happens when i'm 21? Hahaha..another benchmark to cross...lol..this just sound like some excuse so that i can remain childish..sometimes i think when we grow older..we dun try to understand any more..instead we just learn to accept them...its kinda sad though...but sometimes no matter how much we think or ponder..things are just out of our reach
well..i like to look at myself in the mirror..not to admire myself of course..but just to see how much i've changed..u know..i can bet with u...i have looked at u more time than i've look at myself..so someetimes i scare myself when i finally looked into the mirror..i dun just look at my reflection..i stare deep..and i'll smile..lol..its a gd thing i suppose...when i look at me..i look at all the 20 years of me...all the different forms of me...
Man..all these sound kinda weird..lol..like what my good fren told me. "You know why are we good frens? It's because we dont fit in anywhere else." LoL..and we laughed..the statement sounded kinda sad...but to us...it just means that we're different...not special...not unique...just different...
Hmm..its count down to 20yrs old..hahas..i've already received a present early...but...shall compile all the things tml... 090909 ...hell i love the date...many of my frens asked me to celebrate it with a bang! i dunno...but i noe 1 thing..i still gotta report to camp at 0730hrs...curse national service...
i've got a heart full of pain.
head full of stress
handful of anger
held in my chest
