The star u gave me..

Friday, January 1, 2010

Life is a very special thing. It is the epitome of our existence..do i need to say more.

I have been thinking alot. Actually i've been thinking for 20years. Through my own experience. I'm not a particularly blessed or cursed person. I'm normal..as in I'm born normal. Normal looks. Normal body. Normal intelligence. Normal luck. I grew out up and became different...but tt's not the point. I was thinking why can life be so special but we're stuck in this world. Yes. I dun think there is anything wrong with our life. There is just something wrong with this world. The WORLD makes our LIFE messed up. Seriously, i want to change the world so much. But i realised that even if i can and did change the world, it will still go back to being messed up when i'm gone. It is really very sad. I'm starting to have evil thoughts like just blowing up the world. We dont it if its going to become more messed up.

Yet i dont deny that there are people trying to help. The people who make us smile and believe that the world is not as bad as it is. Yet...the world is like a face. It has beautiful eyes, but the face is ugly. You get what i mean? Who the hell will notice the beautiful eyes on an ugly face. It just take 1 stupid inconsiderate heartless asshole to spoil years of our life.

Maybe i do. Maybe more people do. So i told myself. To protect the people who contribute to the "beautiful eyes". Protect their happiness. So that they dont have to see the world through my eyes. I want to make them feel like the world is amazing as life. I want them to be happy. Cross my heart and hope to die.