Tuesday, September 8, 2009
when i was 15 and tried to picture myself at 20 yrs old..I only need 1 word to describe what i pictured..MATURE..LoL..what i meant was : not making silly mistakes. wont be so emotional. in control. not watching cartoons anymore. bascially..know what's right and what's wrong.
Sadly, i didnt manage to be what i imagined myself to be...I still throw tantrums, still watch cartoon and still a little angsty..LoL..hardly know whether i should lend $10 to this guy..hardly could contain my anger when talking to my dumb superior..hardly could stop myself from playing psp when i'm on the train..maybe this only happens when i'm 21? Hahaha..another benchmark to cross...lol..this just sound like some excuse so that i can remain childish..sometimes i think when we grow older..we dun try to understand any more..instead we just learn to accept them...its kinda sad though...but sometimes no matter how much we think or ponder..things are just out of our reach
well..i like to look at myself in the mirror..not to admire myself of course..but just to see how much i've changed..u know..i can bet with u...i have looked at u more time than i've look at myself..so someetimes i scare myself when i finally looked into the mirror..i dun just look at my reflection..i stare deep..and i'll smile..lol..its a gd thing i suppose...when i look at me..i look at all the 20 years of me...all the different forms of me...
Man..all these sound kinda weird..lol..like what my good fren told me. "You know why are we good frens? It's because we dont fit in anywhere else." LoL..and we laughed..the statement sounded kinda sad...but to us...it just means that we're different...not special...not unique...just different...
Hmm..its count down to 20yrs old..hahas..i've already received a present early...but...shall compile all the things tml... 090909 ...hell i love the date...many of my frens asked me to celebrate it with a bang! i dunno...but i noe 1 thing..i still gotta report to camp at 0730hrs...curse national service...
