The star u gave me..
Sunday, March 23, 2008
sun set at 4:40 PM

can i have 1 big smack upsize?

i hate watching anime endings...makes me melancholy...actually i dun mind dying...not tt i wanna kill myself or anythin...just tt when the time comes...i'll just...smile n go...i wouldnt complain...i live every moment like it'll be the last...its hard to say...hmmm...some may interpret "live every moment like it'll be the last" as fulfilling dreams...doing meaningful stuff...earning money...not "wasting any moment of their time"...but it's different for each n everyone...but i think what it essentially mean is to do what u what wanna do...and do it with all the u had...according to the dictionary: a dream is a situation or event which u think about it often because you would like it to happen...so...i guess i dun have any dreams...seriously...i think its becus all dreams r too small for me...so what if i'm rich? so what if i'm a popular actor? so what? so what? i had no idea...to me..its no big deal...so what if i could get all As...so what if i can play the piano, write song lyrics n know how to fight with a nunchaku...all of it...sounds so empty...but there r things tt i want...i tot of them often...i would like all of it to happen...but...its not a dream...i doesnt sound like a dream...i want to love n be loved...i want to have a happy family...i want to have children...i want all my frens n family to be happy...i want to be happy...r those my dreams then? sounds weird
Watever...watching the last episode of anime always makes me melancholy...